Gib mir Musik – um mir ein Feuer anzuzünden, Um die dunklen Tiefen meiner Seele zu ergründen Meine Lust und meine Schmerzen – Narben, die ich mir selbst verschwieg. Gib mir Musik, gib mir Musik Gib mir Musik, gib mir Musik! (Reinhard Mey)
Outside the street's on fire in a real death waltz Between flesh and what's fantasy And the poets down here don't write nothing at all, They just stand back and let it all be And in the quick of the night they reach for their moment And try to make an honest stand But they wind up wounded, not even dead (Bruce Springsteen)
I dance in tune with what I fear To do adrenaline Completely rapt with what I hear When passion colors everything The songs I sing, from way out there to deep within The face I wear behind my grin The price I pay for my original sin (Poets of the Fall)
Being 5 years old and standing in our living room around Christmas, singing along to Reinhard Mey's "Musikanten sind in der Stadt". The song basically deals with prejudice towards travelling musicians and ends on the lines "Schützt uns vor Musikanten die auf Reisen sind oder laßt mich mit ihnen zieh'n" (Save me from traveling musicians or let me go with them). Little did I know I'd do just that one day.
2003 Milan, San Siro Stadium, downpour. Bruce Springsteen singing the first words of "Wainting on a sunny day" "It's raining", stopping, looking up at the sky and breaking into a huge grin. Me, standing at the back of the pit, forgetting all about the rain and just living (and loving) that moment. 2012 Helsinki, Olympic Stadium. Bruce walking out on stage with just a guitar, playing for us. Leap of Faith, the song I never expected to hear live.
2007 Odense, on a cool September night. A pair of rather beautiful blue eyes looking into mine, staring almost. Complete lyrics blackout and total awe. 2010 Helsinki, Tavastia. Holding hands and gazing into each other's eyes for what feels like hours. Moments pass, the world around me disappears, all thoughts slip my mind and I'm lost in space and time. Then we let go, smile at each other and he moves on.
2012 Vilnius, a beautiful church. Jittery to no end, I am happy to sit down, feeling rather exposed in front row. Too many doubts on my mind despite the strong belief that it will all work out in the end. I don't know what to expect until you smile at me and all my fears vanish.
So who am I? Psychologist. Music fan. Concert addict. Book lover. Movie junkie. Amateur photographer. Sometime writer. Traveler. Passionate and curious.
Have love, will travel and have been known to follow "my" musicians all over the place. I get to see new cities and countries, meet wonderful people. Just one way of the occasional escape from real life. ;) Reading, movies and some TV series are others.
A life without music I cannot imagine. I need it like the air I breathe, to make me laugh and cry, to make me think and most of all to speak to my heart and soul. My greatest fan loves in this area are Poets of the Fall, Árstíðir and Bruce Springsteen. I listen to a large variaty of other artists and bands though.
Movie theaters are my natural habitat and I enjoy film festivals. The list of my favorite movies is long and varied. Generally I like drama better than comedy, but once in a while I need some laughter too.
You won't find my at a bar very often and if you do, you can be sure my friends have dragged me there. I do enjoy to go out dancing once in a while but nowhere near as much as I used to. A quiet evening at home talking or sharing a good meal at a restaurant is more my style.
If I need to unwind and let off steam, the fitness club is the place to go, preferably for classes that make me sweat and allow me to either pound something or have me concentrate on a cool choreography so much that I don't even notice how time is passing. Sauna is a must afterwards. I love swimming too - it allows me to let my thoughts run free.
My newest love is Finland. The country as well as the language intrigue me.
Movies: It's a wonderful Life, Disney's Jungle Book, Clerks, 12 Monkeys, Big Fish, Highlander, Almost famous, Dead Poets Society, Nach 5 im Urwald, Tummien perhosten koti, Swimmers, Cinema Paradiso, To kill a Mockingbird, The usual Suspects, Amelie, The Princess Bride, Chocolat, Fried Green Tomatoes, Gegen die Wand, L'auberge Espagnole, Shrek, Night on Earth, Verrückt nach Paris, Garden State, Postia pappi Jaakobille, Soul Kitchen, Tähtitaivas talon yllä, Soundbreaker, Kerron sinulle kaiken, Metalhead
Artists: Poets of the Fall, Árstíðir, Martin and James
Songs: Thunder Road, Tougher than the Rest, Jungleland, For you, Long time coming, Heal my Wounds, Passion colors everything, Carnival of Rust, Illusion & Dream, You can sleep while I drive, Gib mir Musik, Das Meer, Für ne Moment, Bahnhofskino, Unger Krahnebäume The further we stretch, Unwell, L'Accordioniste, I come undone, Don't say no, I do, Conversations with my 13 year old self, Kaivo, Losing my religion, Telling Stories, Here without you, Head over feet, Children of the 80ies, Lives in the Balance, Girl of mysterious sorrow, Round here, Nothing ever happens, Sailing to Philadephia, Won't forget these days, In the name, No strings attached, Halt mich, Boys of summer, Deliver me, The Entertainer, The Dolphin's cry, Life's too short, Rebel Son, Dear Mr. President, Carry me, Sam's Town, Puhu äänellä jonka kuulen, Kirous, Great Expectations, Here's looking at you kid, Huomenna, Albin Stenman, Isä, Parempi, Rauha laskeutuu, Crashing into Love,What I'm searching for, Love's not a fight, Days and Nights, Sunday Morning, Síðasta kveðjan, Ljóð í sand, Shine, Cannon, Julí lag
Authors: Jonathan Carroll, Leena Lehtolainen
Books: Es gibt hier nur zwei Richtungen Mister, The Time Traveller's Wife, The Kite Runner, The Marriage of Sticks, The Tender Bar, Crow Lake, Ladie's Coupe, The Blood of Flowers,The unbearable Lightness of Being, Der kleine Prinz, Das Parfüm, Bones of the Moon, All I really need to know I learned in Kindergarten, To kill a Mockingbird, Life of Pi, Der Spiegel im Spiegel, Der Alchimist, Fool on the Hill, Northern Lights Trilogy, Wilde Schafsjagd, The Book Thief, Water for Elephants,...
TV Series: Quantum Leap, Life on Mars, Ashes to Ashes, Queer as Folk, Firefly, Veronica Mars, Dollhouse, The Good Wife, Doctor Who
Cities: Hamburg, Helsinki, San Francisco, Vienna, Reykjavík, Dublin.
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I blog about daily life stuff, my travels and concerts I've been to. I also post stories (mostly songfiction) and pictures of this and that.
Update: I am not using this blog much any more, but I still come around occasionally.